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Thursday, April 22, 2010

Know my place in you from the little things you've done:O @ 23:54

right. today's thursady and i've offically totally couldn't keep awake for the whole week.
sometimes i wonder if going to JC was a right decision.
Study jiu study la why say like nvr study liddat.
everyday is passing so quickly and quickly, awhile only two weeks gone liao. eh?
life isn't as enjoyable like before as all sorts of shits start showing up after some time.
damn fake ttm pls.
ai ya and i still think that people dun mean what they say.
saying this min to fu yan you, and in the next min they are doing something else already.
does it matter how big or smallt he thing is? its still an agreement made before hand.
and it happened to alot of people:O
okay i think there is just nothing wrong with wanting themselves to be happy and comfortable.
yeah juz disregard the feelings of others then.
right..
Okay.
haha so many months pass already and still can't really get myself into the correct feeling
still can't get myself over with the past. yeah totally
i also duno why. damn freaking retarded.
i have totally so many things to say if it was the old you. i totally have a million things to say right now and i duno say to who.
can't get that kind of trust for me from others nor can i get that kind of trust for them for you.(chim:O)
yup. Lol..
at least i have a place to type it all out. hopefully someone understands it too. hopefully.
and its juz some random post in the middle of the night when i'm stoning ttm!
sighhh
try to post abt investiture soon:D
nights all!
still disappointed like usual~
PiNk-

Friday, April 16, 2010

Totally hurt by you, whom I care about totally. @ 23:59

I'm sad.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Totally confused you know @ 23:33

sighh!
had quite an awesome day today, but once night arrives, it can just totally screw me.
night -> solo stone in room -> den start to wonder everything -> den start begining to be afraid
like totally i'm so afraid to be get so totally painful again.
once is enough, not to mention twice.
totally sighh
i juz suck at it and i dunno why. yup yup.
its been so many years already, i still stay stagnant at this foolish stage.
its the fear of losing someone you care most ttm dat stops you from doing more things.
its juz that i care for this person dats why i dun wanna lose her.
wad if i get ignored forever?
like totally.
just let me fall asleep and never wake up someday. i need some rest. like totally
at least dreams make me happier?
should juz kill off all the emotions and silence away all the love. wouldn't life be better liddat?
den no one will feel hurt, den no one will be afraid of losing someone u really care about
i dun wanna feel so hurt by everything. sian!
every small small things i also feel so affected. guess its juz me! sigh
not to mention handling all the shits myself for so long!
really super tired liao.
super!
dun lie to me anymore, please, anyone.
applies to so many parts of my life, and quite a few people.
plus one clearly painful loss.
lose liao lor, as usual.
ps lah i bo bian, keep to myself also sian, juz type out in words i feel happier at least!
ps people! and hor,
welcome milly, for coming back Singapore!
we all missed you lots lots!
PiNk-

Friday, April 2, 2010

like who to fall back on? @ 16:03

ok this is a totally bored day!
its freaking boring like duno why!
slacking in the room since morning till now and duno wad i doing.
have zero mood to do work and did zero work for many days already.
like totally have to sort out all my thinkings before i can proceed on!
like totally cui lah right now:(

freaking sad sia!
think juz totally forget about everything and dun care everything.
yeah, once scarred, always scarred.
works tgt with the principle of once bitten twice shy.
zero confidence in every single shit right now! tsk tsk
woots!
okay i duno wad i talking.
juz some freaking moodswing on one random freaking heatwave afternoon
tsk tsk!
PiNk-