Saturday, April 3, 2010
Totally confused you know @ 23:33
sighh!had quite an awesome day today, but once night arrives, it can just totally screw me.night -> solo stone in room -> den start to wonder everything -> den start begining to be afraid like totally i'm so afraid to be get so totally painful again.once is enough, not to mention twice.totally sighhi juz suck at it and i dunno why. yup yup.its been so many years already, i still stay stagnant at this foolish stage.its the fear of losing someone you care most ttm dat stops you from doing more things.its juz that i care for this person dats why i dun wanna lose her.wad if i get ignored forever?like totally.just let me fall asleep and never wake up someday. i need some rest. like totallyat least dreams make me happier? should juz kill off all the emotions and silence away all the love. wouldn't life be better liddat?den no one will feel hurt, den no one will be afraid of losing someone u really care abouti dun wanna feel so hurt by everything. sian!every small small things i also feel so affected. guess its juz me! sighnot to mention handling all the shits myself for so long!really super tired liao.super!dun lie to me anymore, please, anyone.applies to so many parts of my life, and quite a few people.plus one clearly painful loss.lose liao lor, as usual.ps lah i bo bian, keep to myself also sian, juz type out in words i feel happier at least!ps people! and hor,welcome milly, for coming back Singapore!we all missed you lots lots!PiNk-
